I was confirmed with an ectopic on Friday, and treated with methotrexate same day. It was our first, and I'm terrified to try again. I was only pregnant for 5 weeks, but I loved that little bean more than words can express.

Everything leading up to this was an absolute rollercoaster. Three weeks of blood draws every other day and my arms look like pin cushions. Three weeks of bleeding (and it still continues). Three weeks of praying and praying that despite what I felt in my gut that things would be ok. A week of knowing in my heart that something was wrong after feeling "pressure" on my right side. I'm having a hard time not feeling like I did something wrong, even though I know that nothing could have prevented this.

My husband has been amazing and supportive. The few friends that know what happened are checking in constantly...but none truly understand.

How do you move on? How do you heal your heart and not worry constantly the next time?

Love, prayers, and strength to all of you beautiful ladies dealing with your losses. ❤️❤️