This is not meant to be negative or serious or a dig at my husband. I have a loving husband and we have carefully planned our family (as much as one can at least).

I have a one year old boy and my husband and I want two kids close together because we aren’t young and can’t waste too much time, but now the reality seems to be hitting us, or me, and it’s like omg omg omg can we do this?? Are we ready again??

My last period was December 18 and I found out I was pregnant around 10-11 dpo (I think? I can’t remember!). The tests were the little strips, so I wanted to get something more obvious for my husband. The traditional pink line test. I bought a box and then left it in my glove compartment while my car went in the shop for two weeks. 🤦🏽‍♀️

I also bought a cute little onesie to surprise my husband but it didn’t arrive until almost a month later. During all this time my husband has been asking me some questions here and there about not having my period, about morning sickness, about fatigue. But every time he talks about it it’s an “if” or “allegedly.” Like he doesn’t quite believe I’m pregnant. “Do you think you threw up because you’re maybe pregnant?” O_o um. Yes dude!

To be fair, I’ve had miscarriages in the past and both of us are hesitant to be excited just yet because we don’t want to get our hearts broken again, but from my point of view, any day that I’m not spotting or bleeding is one day closer to being in the safe zone. But I still know I’m pregnant. My husband seems to not want to believe it yet.

I made my appointment and asked if there would be a heartbeat detected, because I want him to hear it and get real proof that this is happening. The appointment is tomorrow. Even now my husband is like “let’s wait until the doctor can confirm that you’re actually pregnant before we get our hopes up.”

“Let’s make sure he gives us the all clear that you’re pregnant.”

“You don’t believe me?”

“I do.... but we’ve had false starts before. I just want his professional opinion. I mean... how can you be sure?”

“I haven’t had a period since December.”

“Oh....well... let’s just see what he says. Then he can give us a real due date and we can start planning.”

🤦🏽‍♀️

I understand his caution. I do. Last time I was pregnant, the doc was excited before I was because i was so scared of losing it. But I’m feeling good about this one. Cautiously optimistic. No spotting. Strong nausea symptoms (lol). It’s a little frustrating that he’s sooo obviously in denial until he can get it confirmed. I’ve offered to show him tests but he’s not interested.

Hopefully this will change tomorrow!!

🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

UPDATE: we just got home from our appointment and found out we are having twins!! 😱😱😱😱 Now *I’m* the one in denial!! Lol!! He believes me now lol 😂