So first let say I’m 30 recently married and TTC. I’m also the baby of the family. They all gave up I’d get married and have babies about 5 years ago so when I announced my elopement after dating for 8 years they were shocked and the questions and pressure started again. Part of why we eloped and weren’t telling people we were TTC.

So this month my doctor wanted to start a fertility work up with the timed blood work and ultrasounds. Awesome yay! Glad to finally be getting answers. However an unexpected pap came back and he wanted to do an endometrial biopsy which we scheduled very short notice for tomorrow in his office. I need to take Valium before hand so I can’t drive. My husband doesn’t get off work until right after the procedure. Instead of burning one of his vacation days I asked my mom to drive me and he would drive me home. I was nervous about it the procedure itself cuz they are worried about possible cancer cells. Made the mistake of venting all this to my mom and how I was scared it would mean a hysterectomy instead of babies. We talked. She reassured me. I thought it was a private conversation between mother and daughter. Then trying to follow my doctors orders to ask my grandmother about her OBGYN history I act like a good patient and call to ask her as casually as I can about her history. Grandma gets excited and starts singing in the phone (literally) “Jenn’s having a baby! Jenn’s having a baby!) over and over again. I finally get her to shut up and explain I’m not pregnant. I’m trying but I’m not having success and we’re trying to find out why. She’s very disappointed but gives me the info I need which basically was she never had any problems until late pregnancy and got pregnant the moment she looked at my grandfather off the pill all 5 times (gross thanks for that image grandma).

So tomorrow is the biopsy. I wake up randomly at 11pm after a hell a good nap thinking all is well. I’ll have a little snack before my no food after midnight orders and go back to bed. Check my phone and discover a text message from my mom. She’s telling me in a group message that I’m very loved and everyone is going to be there to support me tomorrow! WTF? No! Please no! There’s like 12 people in this group message all saying the same thing! But now now none of them will answer the phone! It’s a doctors office not even an out patient waiting procedure! I don’t need 12 people sitting around waiting for me to get my uterus lining scraped or sucked or whatever! I don’t need my whole family aware of my infertility problems! I sure as hell don’t need them staring at me as I wait in the morning worrying over me cuz I might or might not have cancer cells! I should have known! I had 20 people sitting in the waiting room when I had my tonsils out at 22! My husband thinks I’m being dramatic. He doesn’t think they’re all really gunna show.... umm sorry dude you married the baby girl in a huge southern family. This was why I hide you for the first 4 years and why I convinced you to elope. In the 3 weeks they knew of our engagement the guest list went from 30 to 260!