Anyone has advice? 😭😔 feeling 👎🏻

So I took this on my 9/10pdo and I saw a very very faint line, I am forcing myself not to retest until the due date (14th February) but it is very hard. Today I am feeling soooo many cramps and backhacke that I think this is not my month although I felt different in the last days. I don’t know I am just a bit down. I had a lot of different symptoms that I never had in my life, and also that fainted line was the first one for me. Do you think I can still hope?