Husband help

So my husband drinks and when he drinks he turns into a jerk. We have a three month old daughter and he acts a fool around her. And it breaks my heart. He claims he will change but I don’t know if he will. I have a hard time believing him. His lates episode his mother was at our house visit the baby and he is drunk claiming he isn’t (problem 1) and then claiming he is going to kill

Himself in front of all of because I was being mean. I had just got home from

Visiting family. And that is what I came home too was a drunk husband who was being rude to me. I just needed to vent! And a no judgment place to put it out there. I’m literally going to lose my shit if this continues. I don’t want to leave him and tear our family up but I don’t want my child

In this environment either.