9 days Postpartum feeling alone

So my baby is the best things that’s ever happened to me!! But I feel like my husband doesn’t see how exhausted I am! He’s so sweet and tries to help with the baby but she just wants me she likes sleeping in my chest. I need help around there house but he doesn’t see it... then to top it off I’m already feeling self continuous of my stomach and I had to go to the bathroom today and both doors where locked and I heard him watching porn... I just want to cry I feel like he doesn’t look at me the same. He hasn’t said anything bad to me he’s been really sweet I know he loves me. It may al be in my head but I’m really struggling.