“I Love You.”

Was the last thing I heard from him.

He was only 31.

I’m 26.

I’m still having trouble processing everything that’s happened. I miss him so much already.

I lost my dog I had since I was 12 in November.

Now I lost my soul mate. He said he had me a ring, but was waiting for the right moment. We were going to get remarried. We had a past, but were too immature when we got married the first time. That was 5 years ago.

We were going to look at houses next week.

He was my only friend that I texted and called on a daily basis.

His family and some Facebook friends are trying to talk to me but I have Aspergers and anxiety so I’m just sitting here frozen. I’ve replied to some of them.

I feel so alone. He treated my son as his own. He’d move mountains for me if he could. I just don’t know what to do now.

He said he had a surprise coming in the mail for me. Of course when I get home it’s here. Of all days.

I told him a few weeks ago to not get me roses because flowers die. These are made of foam so they won’t. 💔💔💔💔💔

I can’t eat. I already have breastmilk supply issues but I tried eating earlier and it shot right back up.

Idk how much more I can take. My son is the only thing keeping me calm. I just don’t know what to do.