Depressed with anxiety and confused

I was in two abusive relationships when i was younger. The first being when i was eleven the other girl being the same age. The girl pretended to be there for me and all that and acted like she loved me but i found out when i hit 13 that she lied about everything and spread lies that i had a bunch of mental illnesses and that i did satanic rituals, drank blood, smoked, did drugs, cut myself. Etc. basically every horrible thing you can think of. Then right after that i met my most recent ex who i actually feel like we were in a loving relationship for a time but then near the end she started acting like she was my mother. Just yelling at me over everything, criticizing me, gaslighting, basically trying to mold me into a ‘better’ version of myself. Then I broke up with her. Ever since the first one ive had really bad anxiety and depression but now i feel soooo much better but im still struggling. Yesterday i helped my sister with her project, i helped around a bit, i socialized, and i just did stuff i normally didnt do.(it was all good though) how do i keep this good streak going and how can i move on, because im still hurting so bad inside, and im still so furious about the innocence that was stolen from me when i was younger and the pain that they caused me.