Been married almost 6 years and together almost 7. We have 4 boys (3 of them being my husband's, 1 was from a previous relationship)...

I am 4 months post partum with the youngest.

In the past I brought up a fantasy of mine (adding another girl)....

He asked me if he could have girlfriend bc I'm not putting out...

There is a big difference in fantasy and reality. I'm not ready for it to become reality.

We are in a 4 day argument bc my sex drive is nonexistent. I hate having it ever since my youngest was born. My hormones are jacked up.

I can't sleep, I'm barely eating.

He wants a girl from his work. She like me is from NJ. She is in a bad relationship currently and has a child.

(All of this is like me 7 years ago).

My husband said he wants to "help her" bc he's "Captain save a hoe"

Yes. He called himself that and I told him thanks for calling me a hoe.

He said he's not talking to her like that but she has potential. But he wanted to ask me before he tried to get with her.

He honestly thinks that he can do this. He says "I do love you or I love you to pieces". That he wouldn't leave the boys and I for someone else.

I told him he needs to focus on the kids and I and not someone else who is in a relationship.

But I cannot live like this. I haven't worked due to having children back to back. I have tried numerous times to get a job but he tells me "there's no need, that it's too much of a hassle"....

And now I'm stuck. With 4 kids and no family around me. Feeling like a worthless piece of garbage.

I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of trying to talk to him about how I feel. All he says is "we dont have any issues outside of sex" but yes we do.....