Sorry for the rant guys but I’m feeling very low right now in my TTC journey. I’ve been trying for 16 months now. So sick of obsessing over pregnancy tests. Squinting at negative tests, analysing every symptom. Convincing myself that I have to be pregnant. WHY IS IT SO HARD. Sick of feeling so resentful of people with their little babies or pregnancies , it’s a happy time and I envy them so much.

So sick of people saying “it will happen, chin up”

Honestly someone needs to invent some sort of home scanning system so that we can just see what’s going on inside our bodies and know what’s happening without having to battle with GP’s or gynaecologists for something that should just be NATURAL.

Running out of people to share my pain with as my friend who’s also TTC has just found out she’s pregnant. I am so happy for her I truly am, but also my heart is breaking.