I’m 18 and I’m in my first ACTUAL relationship. We’ve been together almost 2 years now, and I absolutely love him.

But I know it’s rare for high school sweethearts to end up married and stay together a long time after high school.

There’s no red flags or anything about us breaking up, I guess I’m just terrified at the thought of him having a conversation with me and basically saying we’re done.

I think it’s also an underlying abandonment issue, as many men have just left without a word in my life including my father.

I’ve watched my girlfriends go through breakups and it looks horrible. All the crying, the depression, the lunch time counselling sessions with your friends. I don’t want that at all.

I know it’s a fact of life to go through heartbreak, but I honestly can’t imagine my life without him. Now that I’m committed, I never want to being single.

I don’t really know what the point of this post is but yeah...thoughts?