If you're reading this, you're probably one of those woman in the same boat as I am. If you aren't, then you may

know someone who is.

There's nothing like hearing a doctor say the word Infertility. In that moment, the rush of emotions is not so much overwhelming as it is numbing. You think to yourself, "wow, there's goes my chance." I don't care if you are 16 or 36, those words hurt and they hurt deep.

You're left sitting in a paper gown, on the edge of a hospital bed, wondering what the hell your future is going to look like now.

Who's going to love me?

That was my first question to my mom. Who's going to marry the girl who can't give them a child? Who wants to go into a relationship knowing that having sex & getting pregnant, they'll have to spend triple the money for just a shot at a child? The answer?

A good man....

If someone can honestly walk away from someone because of a medical condition in which they have no control over, then fuck him! Would you want to be with him anyway?.....NO!!!!

It's going to hurt.

I know you're hurting, even when you say you aren't. You're trying to play the "I was born this way. There's nothing I can do about it," card? Yeah, me too. But, we all know it's tough.

You feel powerless. You question why it had to happen to you? What in the hell did you do wrong to deserve this? The tears will fall when you least expect them to & most days are going to be easier than others.

Someday, you're going to have a little hand wrapped around your thumb and you're going to be at peace. Not long after that you'll be braiding hair and taking away privileges because someone copped an attitude. In that moment, between the smiles and tears, the giggles and snuggles, you're going to look back on all this hurt and wonder why it was so terrible.

Cry when you're upset, laugh off the aggravation, & give a big middle finger when someone tells you that eating kale and having sex on silk sheets will help you get pregnant.

This journey is what you what you make of it & YOU, my infertility sister......will make one hot mama!