I’m going to pretend

I’m just going to pretend everything is okay.

I’m going to pretend I haven’t been abused mentally, physically, emotionally by my parents.

I’m going to pretend that i might not have been molested by my mother as a child.

I’m going to pretend my dad didn’t date rape my mom and then my mom drink while pregnant because she didn’t want to get rid of me but she didn’t want me while pregnant.

I’m going to pretend that I’m not starting to fail my classes because I feel so broken.

I’m going to pretend that my parents aren’t going to split up.

I’m just going to pretend that everything’s okay and I’m not falling apart.