Love and pain🖤 i need to vent.

I sit here and write this at 3 am with tears on face. I have a one year old daughter with a man that i despise so much. We made her off one time we had sex even though we knew each other before. I just felt so alone my pregnancy i didn’t want to be with him and things just changed after i had her i started feeling some type of way for him.he helped somewhat with money now hes bieng a dick since he got a gf and doesn’t help with money and is always out partying with his new gf and spending money while im

Stuck taking care of the baby. I feel a sadness in me. Even though i love my daughter i dont know why i feel like i hate having a kid with him sometimes i feel like i dont want her and it kills me to feel that way. I feel hopeless like i want to give up i hate her sometimes because she is the connection with him. I hate him for doing this to me. I didn’t want a kid with him. And i look at her and SHE looks exactly like HIM. :( And than i regret feeling that way because i love my daughter. I just dont deserve to go thru this ive had painful heartbreaks in the past. And this is hurting me so much. Why does he do this to me? Why did he hurt me like this? Having a child with someone is supposed to be beautiful but it feels like a nightmare sometimes.😪💔😔😔