My depression and anxiety

I have had anxiety since I was 6 and depressed since I could remember and I have a lot of medical issues which affect my mind and my body my doctor says that my immune system is attacking me and my body it is getting harder and harder two get through a school day I feel like I have no one to talk to you cuz my friends are going through a lot of crap to so I've been helping them with everything and not myself ever since I was two my dad started leaving and coming back in my life we haven't talked in around 4 months so that's getting really hard to deal with my mom isn't really being there for me either and I have told her how I feel and all she says back is how she feels the same way and that I just need to keep on fighting and just pretty much just talking about her and how she feels all the time when she's been doing since I could remember I feel like I'm drowning I have a therapist and I like to talk to her but she doesn't just listen she gives me options or tells me maybe it's not how it seems I've been dealing with all this since I was 2 and I have more mental disorders that make me feel the world is crashing down on me I really just need somebody to talk to I feel alone and it's cool nobody knows that I feel this way because I put on a fake smile everyday and laugh and joke with people I don't want to tell people about my medical issues in my mind issues as well cuz people look at me differently when I try to talk about my problems and try to get stuff off my chest people at school who I talk to about this stuff I stop talking to them cuz they're look in their eyes looks like they Pity Me I've been getting that look since I could remember I hate it it makes me feel so little