I'm so sad. My husband is going to present his research in Seattle, California, and Memphis this summer. The first two are places we've always wanted to go together. Well it's fully paid for by his scholars program. We have a 3 month old. So it will be just him going. We cant afford for myself and the baby to go. I dont have a sitter, so even if just us two went, we still couldn't afford it. He's going to become an EMT after his trips and then graduate this fall with his BA in molecular biology. Then he'll be in medical school the next fall. I am so incredibly happy for him...but I won't get to travel, I won't get to graduate with my BA because we will have to move for his med school before I can finish. I've never felt so...left out I guess you would say. I brought it up to him that i was feeling down. And he said that without me none of the things he is going to get to do would be possible ans that he is so incredibly thankful for me. I love that he said this and it's wonderful but it doesn't make me feel any less broken. I clean, cook, take my classes (that are basically obsolete at this point) and take care of the baby. I dont get to go out because we have one car that he uses during the day. I honestly feel so depressed and trapped within the walls of my own home. He's going out living life, while I'm stuck at home. Dont get me wrong I LOVE MY CHILD. I love being his mommy. It's just so hard. How do I make myself feel accomplished...proud...or even just alive?