Guys I can’t stop crying...went in for my anatomy scan today and I left in tears...first I learned that my baby is a boy...I prayed so hard for a little girl and right now all the love I felt towards this baby has just gone out the window...I’m completely detached from it right now and I just wish it would just disappear from inside of me...The technician kept on asking me questions about my first ultrasound( I did it at a different place) and I could just tell that something was wrong...he then told me that he’s seeing something on the scan but he’s going to send everything over to my doctor and I should go in right away....I’m crying so much right now...I’m home alone my boyfriend is at work and I just feel like the world has caved in on me...I don’t want this baby anymore...😢😢😢😢😢😢

EDIT: everyone seems to be saying I’m depressed or I’m a horrible person or I’m not Godly...but none of you knows my struggles for you to sit behind your screens and hurl accusatory comments at me...I did EVERYTHING I could to get pregnant...most of us set up plans pertaining to different aspects of our lives and when they don’t go according to plan we react differently because we’re all different...nobody want a “broken” child and if you go out celebrating and jumping for joy shouting at the top of your lungs that your baby is defected then that’s up to you...this is my body and my baby and I’m entitled to my feelings without having to be judged

EDIT:(FINAL ONE)

Got my results back from my doctor and my little one has fetal hydrocephalus...😢😢😟😟...for everyone who thinks terrible of me I hope you never find yourselves in my position...it’s easy to judge when you’re on the outside looking in but unless you’ve walked the road I’ve walked you have no right to speak about the kind of person I am...God knows my heart and how much I’ve prayed for this baby...Like many of you said gender disappointment is real and i could have gotten passed that but knowing that my baby could have a birth defect was what broke me...my boyfriend and I have made the heartbreaking decision to let our son go...he doesn’t deserve to go through life abnormal and im not gonna watch my little boy suffer...this was my miracle baby and I’ll forever cherish those 23 weeks...hope you sleep in peace little boy...😢😢