Is it really over...?

Hi you guys 😊

So I want some outside opinions on my current situation...

So back in November, one of my coworkers asked me out. We went out ONCE to the movies. Some backstory: he’s now 30, and I’m 21 in May. So there’s almost a 10 year age gap. I personally have no issue with that; in fact, I’ve always liked older men.

Anyways, in December, he told me that he has no feelings for me and that he didn’t want to string me along. At first, I felt the same way because I was under a lot of stress from finals, but once they passed, I was overwhelmed by all the feelings that came rushing in.

We’re still friendly at work, and there’s no animosity between us.

However, we occasionally exchange exchange (naughty) photos and videos. And recently, I’ve been catching him either checking me out, or looking at me with this look that’s hard to explain... it’s not lust... it’s just a very deep look that he maintains even when I make eye contact with him.

I’m not gonna lie, I’ve managed to get over most of my feelings for him, but I can’t help but think sometimes about how great we would’ve been. We get along amazingly (communication is fantastic!) and there’s an insane amount of chemistry between us.

I’ve learned time and time again not to have hope so I’m not assuming anything’s going to happen again. I don’t want to think that he still has feelings, but the way he looks at me makes me think that he perhaps just said he doesn’t have feelings because he thinks I’m too young... 😔

But anyways, feel free to leave me your thoughts on this situation 😊 I’d love to hear them!