I don’t know if I’m looking for help or support, I think I’m just trying to get my feelings in writing to make sense of them.

I don’t even want to live anymore. I love my son so much, but I feel stuck in my living situation.

I can’t move out as I am saddled with an expensive car payment I didn’t want. I love my family and I appreciate everything they do for me, but I feel like I am constantly under a microscope. I do my best to help around the house but it’s hard to do anything while I’m watching my 9 month old son. He won’t even let me leave the room without crying.

Again, I love and appreciate my family, I just don’t think I can live with them anymore. If I could just get away, things would be easier and I would be happy.

I don’t think I really want to die, I just want to escape.