Okay so here’s the deal i have this guy i see like maybe once a week😂 he just comes over we smoke and then cuddle watch tv and then we have oral sex and such well i gave him head for the first time like two nights ago and after i gave him head i wanted sex like for real lmaoo i looked at him and told him that wanted sex but that i didn’t because “i don’t wanna have sex and catch feelings for you” he understood and said wait till next time we see each other so that way i have time to think about it well i want to have sex still but like I’m nervous i guess because i always thought when i was ready to have sex it would be with someone I’d be in a relationship with! I don’t think I’ll catch feelings for him because we barely hang out and text/talk only time we really talk is us talking about him coming over he said he would have a relationship with me but he likes open relationships and he knows he’s a hoe and he’ll tell you he is so I’m like no because I’ve never had a real relationship and don’t want one like that but i don’t get aggravated when we barely talk like i do with other guys I've talked to in the past so i feel like i see him as someone to please me while i please them i guess I don't know but the day after i sucked his dick he FaceTimed me and asked when i was gonna do it again like i just sucked your dick last night😂 also he knows my flaws I’m super comfortable with him he’s a great friend in general!

by the way most of my friends say I’m not a virgin because I’ve been with 2 girls and then I’ve let 3 guys finger me/eat me out🤦🏼‍♀️non of them i was dating! And i also have a dildo😂surprise surprise I’m a very horny 19 year old i can’t help it but yeah i just need advice!!