I’ve been in a relationship with this guy for over a year, and we recently moved in together. I have known since the moment I met him that I loved him, and that he was special to me. We had our fights, but I always knew that we were going to work it out and end up together.

Now that we live together, I feel less sure that I want to spend the rest of my life with him and it breaks my heart because of how happy he used to make me. Our fights seem much worse now- we still make up, of course, but now they just feel different.

Some days I feel like I don’t even know if we love each other anymore, and it really breaks my heart. He always assures me that he loves me, and that my depression is just sending my mind into a bad place, but I really don’t know.

Some days, just the thought of him makes me so incredibly happy, just like he always has. I feel like I’m sure he’s the love of my life and I want to be with him forever, and other days I feel like i’m just staying with him because he’s familiar and I’m wasting my life with someone I know I’m not going to marry.

Idk what to do or how to feel because my emotions are all over the place, and I can’t find anything that seems to be triggering any of these emotions.

I’m afraid to tell him how I’ve been feeling because I don’t want to hurt him, especially if I’m just going through something and it has nothing to do with him. I don’t want to ruin it if the problem is within myself.

But I don’t know what to do, and I feel really shitty all the time because I don’t know how I feel about him anymore.

Is this normal when you take big steps in a relationship??

What do I do??

(Please be kind. This is so difficult for me already, I’m hurting as I’m struggling with these emotions. I just want help.)