Worst way to get a period ever😭😭😭

I just need a little bit of a rant after what's just happened.

So bit of backstory: I lost my baby at 22-23 weeks pregnant in october she was stillborn. Haven't been TTC as I'm still too devestated to even try again.

Anyways I must have fell asleep. So I I was having a dream. I was sat in the house and I was pregnant. 24 weeks to be exact and I was so happy because I felt like I could stop worrying so much as I was past the 23 week mark. So I'm just sat chilling and watching tv and I start getting really bad pains in my stomach.

It hurt so bad! I could pysically feel it (even though it was a dream) so I called my partner who came rushing over. The pain was getting worse and I couldn't stand or even really move. He helped me up to get me in the car to go to the hospital and when I stood up there was so much blood where I'd been sitting! Loads!! So I freaked out!

And that's when I woke up and realised my period has come with vengeance as (tmi) my bed is covered in blood and I have really bad cramps... And now I feel so devestated and heartbroken j can't stop crying and I'm actually scared to go back to sleep!!

Sorry I just needed a rant! It was so realistic, even down to the small stain on the curtain! Now I'm even more scared to TTC again incase it happens 😭😭😭