Hi ladies! Wanted to introduce myself to this lovely group.

I’m 30, husband is 33, and we’ve been TTC for two years. We found out it’s MFI. I took my first birth control pill today and will start stimming March 8th-ish, with plans for no PGS testing fresh transfer around the week of the 17th.

Here’s where I need help:

I have anxiety and this whole thing doesn’t seem fun to me and I’m dreading it. Lately I’ve just been mad that we even have to do this. It also angers me that my husband gets to travel to cool places for work, drink and pretty much feel normal while I have to do this to my body.

I’m worried about weight gain, acting crazy from the hormones, and just feeling so awful that I can’t perform well at my job. I also have had chronic pain in the past as well as a painful complication after a surgery once, so I’m now of the mindset that 1) bad shit always happens to me and 2) my chronic stomach issues will come back with <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> and/or pregnancy.

Ladies, how do you keep yourself calm during this? Any tips? Most days I don’t feel like myself anymore!