Went through 3 <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> cycles. Each one varied with how many follicles I produces, most of all the follicles retrieved fertilized but none grew to blastocyst. Doc doesn't recommend any additional cycles because due to my age the same results will occur due to egg quality. <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a> is hard enough, the hopes and dreams bring put on the line is like the last minutes of the Superbowl and you just need to make that 1 extra point. And I missed it and I don't get a doover. It's been nothing but tears, self doubt, grieving the loss of that ideal dream child.

So doctor suggests donor eggs as an alternative. My SO wants me to be selfish making this decision, which is not in my character. He also wants me to look at it in a way that with my fragile emotions makes me worried. He wants me to look at it in the perspective, if we were not together would I still go through a donor? If we do go through this stage and we don't make it as a couple will I regret the choice since the child will not have my genetic code. To my emotional self, it sounds like he has one foot out the door. We've been friends.for over 20 years dating for 5 and live a state away from one another. That's hard enough, he was supportive of us trying but now I don't know what to think or feel and I normally would of said something but with the last cycle of hormones still working their way out of my system, my AF due any day now and with the emotions of not being able to conceive with my own eggs, I didn't want to come across being psycho.

Sorry for the post. Just needed to let it all out.