So, most of you don't know me. Maybe some of you do. None the less, my life has had many, MANY ups and downs within the last 365(ish) Days. Its incredible how we have been alive for thousands upon thousands of days, yet, it only takes one moment to change your life forever.

So I won't go in to detail with my first relationship. It was the usual domestic violence case where the young, dumb, and vulnerable girl stays. Had 2 kids, thought he'd change, maybe he'd love me more? (If you feel like this vaguely mirrors your life, Spoiler alert, it doesn't get better. Nothing changes. Run.) 7 years pass before I realized that. As I walked away from that relationship, I walked away not knowing who I was anymore.

I was a shell of HIS perfect woman. I wasn't a woman with goals or aspirations not of my own at least. At this point of my life, im just surviving now. I bought a car, filled up that car with my kids belongings and drove half way across the US.

I made it back home to my family who graciously let us in with open arms but trying to normalize my life that had been nothing but chaos had proven to be very trying.

I had no identity. The woman I saw in the mirror was just a broken shell.

The depression creeped in and filled every empty void that had been stripped from me. I started partying, sold pictures of myself for diaper money, got negative attention

some positive. Basically, if you can't tell, im spiraling. Then one night, with a snap of a finger, everything went quiet.

The first moment of peace ive felt in a long time. A small piece of me wishes I could have stayed in that moment forever.

When I finally came to, I managed to walk away with my life. How, I will still never know. But that night, my whole life changed. Funny how everything works out. My car was my access to parties, dating semi creepy guys, and basically living the fast paced lifestyle while running away from my real problems.

Next thing I know, my phone stops ringing, nobody is texting me trying to hang out or inviting me to house parties in admittedly very suspect locations, all the douche bags that just wanted sex vanished and I was finally forced to deal with my biggest problem, me. It took months and months of self reflection. Lots of trial and error, surrounding myself with influential people, finding out what I like and dislike, overcoming trust and commitment issues, and god bless my patient family for helping to hold down my fort while I went through all this. Im luckier than ill ever know.

So, end of summer last year was my time to shine. My "rebirth" so have you. The time to find beauty in everything.

I dyed my hair

Traveled a little bit

Learned to smile more

Okay... a lot more ❤

Went on crazy adventures

Watched my kids growing up and learned to appreciate every day I had with them!

I met a boy 🤫

I kinda sorta fell in love ❤

Realized filters aren't everything

But pizza just might be 😋

I said yes 🙌🏻

I now wear my two biggest supporters ❤

And now, look how time has changed me. How time has helped me to grow. Helped me to find myself, find my passion, find my calling. Time slowed down, gave me a pause, to breathe, and now here I am. A am a woman, a mom, a surviver, a warrior.

I still have a lot more smiles to share and im so blessed that I was given the opportunity to do so. One moment is all it takes.

If you don't like your surroundings, if youre not happy, if you don't know who you are, if youre lost, confused, tired..... take a pause.

We will all still be here when you return ❤