All your life you were so fucking afraid of sex, anxiety, fear, your feelings, sexuality, disease, and really of anyone and anything. You started therapy when you were seven and haven’t stopped since, but what you have done is changed. When you were a little girl, you got called lesbo for your short haircut and tried so hard to push away from the fact that maybe you liked girls. Kids told you your skin issues were AIDS, they told you you were worthless. You didn’t know how to love people. You developed obsessions and deep depressions. You never made friends for the first 16 years of your life because all you wanted to do was understand people who could never understand you. You tried to kill yourself. You stressed yourself enough to get permanent chronic illnesses. You got too sick to finish high school. Your house burnt down and everything collapsed around you. Never in your life had you been more fearful. But never in your life had you had the opportunity to start over. All my life I’ve been terrified of the world, terrified of fear, terrified of sex, of disease, of even leaving the house. Well today I took a big step to challenge that fear, younger me. Today I changed my major to psychology with a concentration in human sexuality and behavior. I’m going to write books and educate/counsel teens on anxiety, sex, sexuality, their fears, their body, and more. I finally came out as bisexual this last year and finished up half a biology degree before realizing what I really needed to do with my life. So younger me, just know, all your pain is going to be worth it to somebody someday. Just you see