I’m jealous and I hate it.

My brother just sent me an ultrasound of his baby. They are due around October 13th and I’m happy for him and his girlfriend. I know they’ve been trying a little while themselves but it doesn’t make it any easier to accept. I HATE this feeling I get every time I find out someone is expecting. Because all I want to be is happy and excited for everyone. Had to let it out, sorry!