CONFUSED

I have been questioning for like 4 years. I am a girl and have always been super attracted to guys. I find random guys attractive and also have crushes on guys I’m close with all of the time. I have had probably 5 INTENSE crushes on guys but also get little crushes on guys all of the time. My first kiss was w a guy and I liked it.

A few years ago I think I was in love w my female ex best friend and it’s happened again w my current female best friend. I think she’s beautiful I basically would do anything for her. I had a sexual dream about her and I am always staring at her body / want to kiss her.

The way it feels is that I seek out boys more but sometimes I catch feelings for girls I’m really close with. idk. But I also catch myself staring at girls all of the time.

I don’t know if I would have sex w a girl, but I would w a boy.

I’m confused. Maybe it’s just internalized biphobia?? Maybe I just have a strong preference towards guys.