Squirting

Is squirt pee? Recently my boyfriend has made me squirt a lot and most of the time it’s uncontrollable, and sometimes it smells like pee and sometimes it doesn’t. Sometimes I force it because I know how much he likes it but the more I do it it the more I can’t help but think it’s pee. He doesn’t know the difference I don’t think, he just tells me it’s hot but I get really self conscious about it because of how it looks and smells, most of the time I try to hold out on it until it’s uncontrollable because all I can think is that I’m peeing on him. I don’t know what to do, we lay towels down before we do it and I immediately throw them in the laundry because I’m so worried about it. It’s kinda gross to me.