I can’t be a mom anymore. Im fucking miserable. I miss people. I miss working. I can’t stand only being asleep for an hour at a time if I can even fucking fall asleep. Especially at night, I’m tired of it. He just won’t fucking sleep. Just eats and pukes and screams until I want to jump out of the window. My husband is well aware of how I’m feeling but does he take over for 1 night? Nope of course not because fuck my feelings right? I haven’t been my own person for months. What’s a shower? What are friends? Who knows anymore. I hate it, I just want to leave in the middle of the night. And I hate myself for feeling this way but I just...Can’t help it. This was a mistake.

Edit: I literally just woke my husband up and told him these things. He stared at me said “you’re ok” rolled over, and went back to sleep. I might actually fucking leave.

Second edit: My son is now 3 months and sleeps through the night. Thank you for all your responses. I was so worried that they might take my baby but my doctor was wonderful. I got help and am much better now!