Relieved when I get my period

I am wondering if anyone else feels this way. I know it sounds crazy when you are ttc to say that, but I drive myself absolutely crazy during the tww. I obsess like crazy, tracking every single “symptom” googling everything that can possibly be a pregnancy symptom , taking test after test (all negative) that i feel like a crazy person! Of course I am so sad and disappointed when I get my period but I know that atleast I can focus on other things and not obsess.... until the next tww