Go away anxiety 😭😭😤😪

So today at work I got out my comfort zone and chatted with a few girls that I know talks about me. I know weird, right? I enjoyed laughing with them. But then I find myself struggling trying to continue the conversation or hope I don't just blurt out something random and they just give me that "what" look.

Ok guys let me just go here...

I think anyone around that whispers they're talking about me.

I think they think I smell bad

I think they all talk about me when everyone starts laughing

I get really offended if someone embarrasses me

I don't take jokes "funny" if they're towards me.

I think they talk about my clothes.

Guys the list goes on and on.