It just doesn’t feel fair.

Today life is feeling so unfair. I lost my dad when I was 13 and just found out that my mom has 3-6 months. I have recently started trying to get pregnant with my first. I don’t even know if I can get pregnant since I am 37 and now.... even if I beat my odds...neither of my parents will get to hold my baby. And it just feels so unfair. My heart is so broken.