So today I did something stupid, I calculated how far I’d be if I hadn’t lost my baby at 9 weeks. The answer is 20 weeks. I’d be halfway there, with a heartbeat, a bump, several ultrasound pics, and we’d even know baby’s gender. Instead I’m on my second cycle TTC post MC and the TWW is seriously messing with my mind. Every twinge, every cramp, every made up in my head symptom is convincing me I could be pregnant. My period isn’t due for another 10 days so I know I’m just being overly emotional but damn. I wish it could have been different.