So my husband and I have been ttc for almost 1.5 years. I am now seeing a specialist have had a number of procedures and blood work done. I have an MRI Monday and a polyp removal March 6 with follow up appt March 15.

What I need help with is my family. I feel like I get no support from them. My sister had a baby last April the first month they tried the conceived which is awesome for them. Since then it’s been all about my niece and my sister and how they want to have baby number 2.

Here I am struggling and any time I have mentioned my struggles or procedures my sister posts pictures of her baby or talks about her baby. While I get that she is a mom now it’s like slowly turning a knife in my heart. I don’t think she means anything by it but I have begun to pull back to preserve my state of mind and relationships.

My mom accuses me today of not loving my niece or sister and that I should be wanting to go visit them (6hours away) more often. That I shouldnt be pulling away from people and they shouldn’t have to watch what they say and talk about around me because it’s not fair to them. She asked me if I am never able to have children and I going to say away for ever.

I explained to her that at this time I have a lot going on and I am doing what I need to to keep myself sane and relaxed and hearing about baby number two or my sisters friends and coworkers that make probably more than triple what I make being on their 2-3 round of

<a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>

. That is not helpful to me.

I am beyond pissed at this point. I pulled myself back and didn’t ask anyone to change anything they were doing. I made the changes. Now I’m here made to feel like the bad person because I am struggling and I should ‘get over it’ and just live life and not let things people say bother me.

I know I am emotional at this time due to all that is going on however I thought that I would have a better support system from my family and I’m not getting that.