2nd miscarriage

Hi I just would like to Know From Those who Suffered multiple miscarriages in early pregnancy if the pain was the same or do they differ? I might be headed down a 2nd time and the 1st was excruciating pain...

I am scared out of my mind and I'm Trying to understand why this is yet possibly put in my path again after such a disturbing mc 2 years ago Praying for a miracle but also preparing for the worst.