It's been so long now. It doesn't feel real. It's been so long. All I've ever wanted. It's been too long now. Maybe I'm giving up. It's been way too long now.

I can't even see you in my dreams anymore. It's been so hard. I miss you. I long to hold you again. I can see you. Sometimes.

It's been so long now.

I must not deserve the one thing I long for. Its been too long now. I can't focus on you. It hurts to much.

It's been too long, you know? My mind can only take so much, can't it?

It's been so long. I am still standing. Still trying. Still learning. Still breathing. But. Its been too long now.

I must try and accept the truth.

When it's been so long. Too long now.

But.

I can't ever give up. I need to hold you, I already love you, I promise to cherish you, I long to see you be you. You'd be a part of us all, a part of your dad, me and your sister. Your sister is so strong you know, I just know you'd love her. I just know she'd love you.

It's been so long now. I must have some bad karma. Because.

It's just been too long now.

But I can't ever give up.

It honestly has been so long now. I'm emotionally drained. It's hard to focus on anything else. Because you, you are worth the wait.

But.

We all know It's been so long. No one asks anymore. Because. It's been way too long. I can't help but feel like I'm being punished.

Its been so long now, too long, since you could have been real.

It's been way too long now.