I have no idea whether this will get recognised by anybody but I'm having a really hard time with my relationship and would really appreciate some advice!

So, I started going out with my boyfriend when I was 15. It all moved very, very fast and within a week of talking we were officially a thing. Said I love you, kissed for the first time, the whole thing. And I loved it. It's what made me fall for him, the spontaniety and the fact that we literally talked ALL THE TIME. I was above the clouds for months and wanted nothing more. We took each other's virginity a little after I turned 16 (the legal age in the UK) and I felt truly connected. Anyway, some time goes by and the intense emotions die down and we're in this chilled, committed, lovable relationship.

I'm now 17. Things have changed.

I didn't realise then but I was starting to see my friends a lot less. Whereas I used to talk/go out with them all the time, I wasn't now and it felt strange. Typically when you get into a new relationship you don't see them as often but it got to the point where I was only seeing my BEST FRIEND every two months. Then I noticed that my boyfriend didn't really like any of my friends. He'd only met 2 of them but had his own specific "reason" why he didn't like each of them. And me being my gullible self, I ate it all up. I thought that they were perfectly valid reasons. And while I didn't see eye to eye with many of his friends, I still accepted them and supported my boyfriends friendships 100%.

Fast forward to now. I recently went to my friends 17th birthday party which was more like a gathering with drinks. Let's call her "alice". So I tell my boyfriend that I'm going to Alice's party and that I'll have to be home for 12:30am. He says that he'll go with me on the bus and on the way back (neither of us have a car yet). So I take him up on his offer and everything is set in stone. When we're walking to her house from the bus stop he says that he doesn't want to take me home if I'm drunk. I shake it off and say okay because I'm used to this. So he drops me off and we say goodbye and he says make sure that you text me. Again, a usual occurrence.

So the party is going well and I'm reminiscing with some of Alice's friends that I haven't seen in a while. A few drinks into the night and we move on to the topic of relationships. Me being slightly tipsy I reveal the "don't get drunk" comment and suddenly everything goes downhill. Everyone seems to think that my boyfriend is controlling all the while I'm trying to reassure them that he's not.

Anyway Alice being Alice decided to jokingly send my boyfriend a message saying "your gf is trying to come up with ways to act sober". This causes an argument between her and my boyfriend (as he gets very defensive) and now he's mad at me because I "lied" and said I wasn't drunk.

And then he calls her some awful names and now I've got my best friend crying to me saying how bad he's being and how distant we've become since I started dating him. And its only then that it dawns on me that I've gotten so used to his ways that I've become blind to this horrible personality that he's adopted.

Long story short we got into this massive argument and he punched a sign and now has a broken finger :/ I saw him the day after and we resolved things, he apologised for the things he said and I apologised for lying. However he will not directly apologise to Alice until he gets an apology from her first (for what???) Which I think is unfair as she was only looking out for me.

Since that incident I don't know how to feel. I still love him but things feel different and I'm noticing more of his controlling ways. He tries so hard to make sure I know that he loves me and he'd do absolutely anything for me. I can't bare the thought of losing him but it's got to the point where I have to look out for myself and my friends and I honestly don't know what to do.

Any advice will be greatly appreciated. So sorry for the long post.