I have been having a really hard time because I am ready to try and start a family. My fiancé on the other hand just doesn’t know what he wants at the moment and it’s honestly killing me.... all of my friends are announcing that they are pregnant and honestly it just makes it even worse. We don’t use any protection but we rarely ever have sex now and I keep praying that my period won’t come and that I will be pregnant. We have discussed what would happen if we would find out that I was and he said he would not be disappointed, so I guess that’s a good thing but I just feel like I’m drowning in emotions all of the time now. When I get to the point where I think I can be okay with the idea of waiting, someone announces that they are expecting and it just kills me.... I’m truly happy for them but all I want is to be a mother more than anything and I don’t know how to express that.