So long story short I have herpes type 1 my now ex slept with random girls unprotected while we were still sleeping together he got it from one of the girls and gave it to me because I never knew he was sleeping with other people behind my back.

Anyway it’s been nearly 9 months since this happened and we separated and I’m wanting to get back out there and meet guys and you know and at least try to be intimate with them. Everything goes well until I see that things are starting to get to the point where we might sleep together so I tell them about the std because I don’t want to lit to them but every time I tell them they just shut me down and delete me like the person they were getting to know and seemed to like was no longer there.

I’m feeling really insecure and down because I feel like this std is stopping me from enjoying my life and being with someone because everyone seems to be disgusted when they find out