I’m in love with this guy. He is now my boyfriend. But the thing is we started out rough. I was his side chick in the beginning. Yes, he was cheating on his girlfriend with me but I didn’t know he had a girlfriend but it was to late I have fallen for him and he was my first. I try not to let it bug me that he has a girl at that moment but, of course, it did. But somewhere along the line he told everything to his girl because of both of our guilt, of course, she broke up with him. I felt awful but at the same time kind of happy. But he was heartbroken of course because they have a long history meaning 8 years of relationship, call me a home wrecker if you want, I already know that I am and I’m not going to use any excuse to make it seem like I’m not. So we just having sex most of time when we see each other after his breakup. Then for a couple of months, I wanted to know where we stand, so I asked and he called it “dating”. To me, it didn’t felt like we were dating, it was just sex. But somewhere along the line we became in a “relationship”. It sure doesn’t feel like it. Meaning to say... we together for a year now. But he has been an amazing guy. Treats me like a queen. But let me list out the problem I have.

1. He wants to keep us a secret.

2. Never met his mother.

3. I don’t fully trust him.

And let’s be fair here. So, let me list out my problems he has with me.

1. Best friend with my ex.

2. Very emotional.

3. I’m dark and twisted (negative).

4. I push people away.