How do you guys cope with people/friends/partners/yourself?

I'm in a healing process where I'm starting to get to know myself after years of self hate, drugs and abuse. I'm now diagnosed with bpd and sober. But It's like I've been alone, in myself all these years, and now I'm in love? Starting fresh. And more alone than ever?! I feel lost.

While my anxiety constantly making it hard for me to do this. Help?