So lately my boyfriend has expressed interest in anal... for both me and him.

With me, we’ve gotten his dick in me but it definitely took a lot of lubrication, time, and pain. The last time we did it I ended up bleeding... I don’t think we have a good lubricant. Anyone have suggestions for lubricant? And maybe any other kind of suggestions for actually get his huge dick in there?

Also on his end... I’ve only fingered him, but every time I get so afraid of touching poop. Like the thought just disgusts me so much and I can tell he loves me fingering him but like I just can’t get the thought out of my mind. I’ve thought about buying gloves but then I feel like it would be weird to stop and be like “wait let me get a glove so I don’t touch your poop.” He also bought a dildo, which we haven’t used yet. Well, he has on himself, but I haven’t and I just feel weird about it and I don’t want to feel weird. Like he enjoys it and I want to enjoy it too but yeah the thought of poop coming out just terrifies me 😅

Any advise would be great thank you