So October 2018 , my fiancé and I Lost our first little one . It was the hardest thing we ever had to deal with . Both of us definitely want another baby . He wants another one right now right now . I want to wait I til after the wedding (next October) And in all honestly , after nursing school . I am happy for whenever our time comes but I always had in planned out in my head be finished with the nursing side of school and business side of school . (Neither of which are close to being finished) I don’t want to wait forever because I’ll be 30 before you know it . I want to use my good young eggs while I have them and this young body while it’s still kicking pretty high .... but I still honestly want to wait until ALLL those things are done which would be like another 6 years ish . I definitely don’t want to wait that long . But I don’t want one as soon as right now either . I mean I do but I don’t . IDK km so torn . We don’t have protected sex at all . So I know that’s a big DUH you’ll get prego. But we’ve been together 6 years going back to condoms is not a likely option and birth control ISSA NO FROM ME DAWG . So irdk what to do . The part of me that Longs for children is so ready , but nerdy school girl in me wants to wait , the wife in me wants to make my husband happy . . . Gods timing is everything. . . But do I push the way I’ve always envisioned things to be ? or just ride the wave and let the chips fall where they may ?