I've posted once before about my worries with weight and conceiving/ being pregnant and having a healthy pregnancy. I see so many people bigger than myself pregnant, or already with children and I try to focus on the positives but it can be so hard. I also worry about just looking like I gained weight and am not pregnant. In the big picture, I know none of this matters bc Those closest to me will know and God will take care of everything, but it's hard. Anyway,  I'm 5'6 and about 220. My biggest I was ever at was 228- once I reached that I was disgusted and worked out and ate healthy and was down to 160. I had never felt better in my life. A while later I met my husband and gained all my weight back over time. I can't find that fire I had before even tho I've tried so many times to succeed like last time but I know all too well you will not be successful if your heart is not in it. Maybe it's bc I know my hubs loves me for me and were happy, but either way it kind of sucks. I eat healthy (mostly) and walk daily. I just have a hard time loosing it and keeping it off. Anyway, if my husband and I don't conceive this month I'm going to try so hard to get at LEAST down to 200 and worry about it from there. My overall goal is 150. The pic below is at my lowest, and then from recently.