I just need some advice...

my husband and I have been so bad for so long I am losing my mind..

we moved very fast and have been together for two and a half years and have a 14 month old son together.

We both made mistakes before we got married but we decided to get married anyway because in the end we loved each other and couldn’t see it any other way.

We have been married 9 months and the last 8 months have been absolute HELL hes extremely emotionally abusive and shady towards me.

My husband has a thyroid issue and for months I’ve said that his thyroid was causing the anger and causing him to disconnect from me.. he hides his phone and won’t let me have access to it. He’s had a porn addiction for the entire relationship and lies to my face about it. I had found out about a secret photo app on his phone but he swore it was porn and not another woman.

Whenever we’re together I’m showed no affection or touched unless it’s for sex BUT the second I say I’m done and act done he’s all over me and acts respectful and affectionate also promising he will get help for his extreme anger AND promises I’ll have access to his phone whenever. But the second I’m all in again for the relationship and ask to see his phone he acts like he’s done and tells me I will NOT touch his phone.. and tells me I’m crazy followed by other names.

I could go on and on with this but it is just a summary. Ladies am I crazy? His ex said he was always hiding his phone and never showed her affection and acted like she wasn’t important and that why SHE left him. I later found out he cheated on her but he won’t ever admit that. So I let that go.

What do I do... I want my family to work out and the first year he was AMAZING and everything I could ever want..