So it’s been a long process (not as long as some) but 3 years for us trying last year we had 2 miscarriages and 1 ectopic pregnancy that resulted in being rushed to hospital and them removing my right tube all within 8 months. We started trying again August last year having waited the 3 months after op, so far no luck but then I was due my period 18/2/2019 but felt strange I didn’t have my normal symptoms I get so I did a test. Had a faint positive and was a little excited but waited and then 2 days early I came on that only lasted a day and a half! So I tested again and got another 4/5 faint lines on cheap pink tests. So I decided to get an frer and it was a big fat negative!! I cried as much as I was worried and scared I cried so hard because I thought maybe it would happen!! Maybe it was our time! Now the horrible emotions I’m feeling is hatred and anger towards people having babies, pregnant women, and even the positives on this site! It’s hurts a lot! I didn’t feel this way after my op or miscarriages because I felt everything happens for a reason, but having that hope that I might be pregnant taken away again has caused me to question why! Why does it not happen! Why did I lose my babies! Why did my body not allow me to carry in the right place! Why did I almost die! And why did I have to lose part of the system that could create a baby! Just why?!? What logical reason is there for a women to not be able to create the one thing only she is supposed to be able to! And lastly why can’t I give my supportive, amazing, and loving husband the child he so deeply craves! Sorry but I needed to let it out because I told no one about the tests I’ve done and I know if I bottle up i will lash out at the wrong person