I am not trying to post a depressing post but im a little sad and i usually conceive quickly. I have been ttc since i was able to again after losing my last daughter to stillbirth last October... I have always conceived not the first month but always the second. I have had faints each month all to watch them fade and i don't know if its first response broken or me but ive never took this long to conceive before so i cant tell if those are true positives just my body isnt holding them or if im struggling to conceive again. Anyways i swore this month was my month i bd with my dh on the 16th and 17th O day was the 17th and i have been having the craziest dreams lately like the kind you get while pregnant. Its not sometimes its all the time and ive been having nausea the last 2 days and very tired. I always have felt pregnant immediately and early and i thought for sure this was my month. Then this morning i started spotting a light pink and brown like a normal discharge with a little color mixed in. Im not sure what to think as i am a heavy flo kind of person and im 5 days early from when i should start. I just figure this must not be good... anyways i feel broken as conceiving has never felt so hard but maybe its more that i want that chance to have a baby back so much its stressing my body out. Idk anymore but i guess im wondering if there is any hope left this month.