Today sucks so much, today is my first babies due date, she would be two today. And I know she would have been the absolute cutest baby girl taking after her fathers features (my ex fiancé). Her name was Rebekah Lynn. Even though it’s been two years he an I are still bent out of shape about it. And on today of all days the universe wanted me to start my period and it feels like a slap in the face, this is her day, and the universe just has to remind me that I lost her. Her father and I are still really good friends and he’s even friends with my now husband. And I’d love to just call him so I could just talk, I’ve been crying all day long not really moving or doing anything. But he doesn’t like to talk about it and I don’t know who to talk to. I feel like a failure, Bc I also had another miscarriage with my now husband around a year ago. And it just seems like I can’t do anything right or keep a baby if I get pregnant. Today just eats ass and I feel like total shit.💔