Why is this so hard

Samantha • Wife 💍 Mommy to David💙 Everleigh🎀 and Chloe🎀

My husband and I have been TTC since June 2018. I stopped the pill in May of 18. I don’t believe I really started ovulating since September. Anyway, still no baby. No positive, no nothing. My husband is okay, we had him checked. I’m on Metformin to try and shorten my crazy cycles and progesterone after I ovulate. I am absolutely tired of trying and it’s only been 8 months. How some of you have been trying for years, my heart is with you. This is the most heart wrenching thing I’ve ever gone through. I want this so bad it hurts. I honestly just feel like being a mother isn’t in the cards for me. Never even got a positive. I can’t help but think something is wrong with me but my doctor says there is not. I just hate this